Te Amo :D I'm done on 12/29/11

I'm really glad it did end. OH, I mean, the book :D I finish editing it. 

I remove all amateur lines and replace them with something that I hope you could love. 

And the Facebook page is here . 

Goodreads page here. 

Thank you guys! 

Official release on January 2012.

A Death Card

November-December Issue of My Life

It's not a magazine . . . it's err . . . kind of an update type of title up there . 

Well, here's an update.

a) I FINISH DIVERGENT

And it's by Veronica Roth. I don't need to explain how I'm totally amaze by the story, and I think I'm not doing a review post, but I have a review (a video kind of thing). So I guess I explain well in the video, and how my enthusiasm kind of blinded the actual and whole feeling I'm thinking about the book. And why it isn't rated in full stars.

First hundred pages I think I have to despise the book. I found this annoying, and oh God, really annoying. I hated everything, especially FOUR, ERIC, MOLLY, DREW, PETER and so many things. It's just that I hate the fact how torturous the society is and I think it's because I don't really do dystopians. But every hatred is destroyed after I finish the book. The ending, make me crave for more, for the second book.


Guess I'll have to wait for about more than five months. The second book is out at May 2012. And it's called Insurgent. 

b) I FINISH THE HUNGER GAMES TRILOGY

Which unfortunately, I don't make any reviews. But I do have thoughts on the third one though.

First I was extremely heartbroken -- and a massive heartbreak actually. It's like you are having a heartbreak from a breakup and feels like strangling yourself to death, because you just can't think of any relevancy that relationship ended. That's what I felt about the end of the trilogy -- really, drives me crazy, the suicidal phase.

But of course after a heartbreak, for me, you'll found that reason that makes you think "Oh now God shows me why I have to breakup with him/her." So it's the same. I now already find out, and it's not explainable, about the ends. And I do happy about who Katniss choose, though. And I HATE HATE HATE love triangles, and promise to myself, never read anything, although how bad I am for it, that involves love triangles. Because it's just painful and immature for nowadays YA love triangles. Especially the best-friends-confess loving you-after-you-had-someone love triangle. Really, hate, it. 

And I'm excited for the movie next year! 

c) I WATCH 'BREAKING DAWN' THE FIRST PART

 

Hey, although the series are bad, I have to admit, it entertains me.

Really, I know why it is hated. The characters are boring, anti-feminists, cheap, shallow and immature. But I didn't say that I despise it. I have to say, wholeheartedly, I don't think The Twilight Saga is a good series because of the characters that didn't bring any positive moralities inside them (sacrificing for a man at a young age, sacrificing humanity, dying for someone at a young age, go against parents) but it do entertains me in the early days I've been reading them. And Breaking Dawn, I need to watch the movie as for me, it's the best in the series by far. And also, a purpose of entertainment.  I didn't like "Oh mama, please let me out of this house! It's a friggin first day of the TSBD premiere I don't want to miss it!" I didn't even plan to watch it because I'm sure it has sex scenes, and it did, and I hated sex scenes, but fortunately I got a flying chance to watch so I just go and watch.

Thoughts? The best in the movie franchise so far. And the sex scenes -- it's there in the book, so what to do? And the birth scene makes you gulp your saliva lots and lots of time and the movie flows fast -- not slow like the book. So I'm okay with the movie. And I'm going to watch the second part. 

d) WRITE

Unnecessary to explain. I couldn't stop writing. It's just not good for my health. And I have lots of ideas and stories, which I need to elaborate. But I'm stuck in the middle. The book is probably going to be written back at 2012. 

e) EDIT

Image from AMAZON

It's the book I edit, and I will not recommend buying until 2012. It's a book I write in 2010, when I was 13. 

It's about a pure and platonic love of friendship that never crosses the bound of sexuality. Stay tuned! Available on Kindle also, soon!

I guess that's all for today, eh.

*Sigh* Editing Book Problems

Ah, seriously! Today I couldn't help with my bad sighing. I have to edit my debut book before 2012, and before my third year in high school starts! And I have to enjoy my full literary life, as I have PMR (Junior High Evaluation) next year! I'm worried that damn exam could block my writing schedule, as I never plan to stop writing.

But I write something lately, and fail to finish it. Wait, I will finish it, but not in 2011 particularly. Probably next year. Yeah, yeah, I need to finish them, as I only want to be a writer. And for my mental/emotional health, I must write when I feel like my head is flooding or I will depress (no, this is serious, I'm not playing here). So there's no way I will stop writing fictions, eh?

But during the 2012 school break, I just write a lot of different stories ending up as unfinished drafts. I left two official writings; one ended in 14k words so far, and another one in 30k words. Which is so disappointing! I want to continue on writing those. And I think I will! But for now actually I just feel like not writing, but to edit my debut self-publish novel. I never plan to edit it previously, but thinking to abandon what a beautiful story for me is just like that, I think I have to edit the ninety-thousand words manuscript and reupload it at the self-publishing site. And then it will hit Amazon online stores, and Kindles! But recently, lately, I couldn't. WHY? Because of this one damn reality show.

Kyaak! The Running Man . It's a famous Korean reality game show which drives me crazy! If I'm giving a word for it, words like a quoted review from New York Times book review, it will be this:

"Funny and adrenaline pumping . . . The Running Man is the best and most original reality show I ever watched ever since I born."

From left to right: Kwang Soo, my favorite, favorite dumb-the funny way Running Man, and Joong 'Spartakook!' Kook, my favorite too, sort of like a favorite antagonist in a book, Jae 'Yooruce Willis' Sook, FAVORITE, Ji Hyo, the only woman there, Joong Ki, an-Oh-My-God cute boy that is so cute that you'll want to bite your lip until it's bleed, Big Nose Hyung, HaHa and KangGary

It's all my sister's fault. She's the one who plays it online, and I, stuck in between editing my work and watching this show. Oh my, seriously, it's addictive, and it's pulling you, and make you feel like you wanted to join them (especially SpartaKook. I want to stomp his hard and sturdy body on the floor if I'm in the show). Uh, you may not understand the hell I'm saying, but you just can watch the show and know what I'm saying. It's seriously hilarious. 

But so far I edit a lot of words already, and remove all crappy lines and added some hooking chapters. 

I guess that's all for this post. Wait, I'm going to post you stuff I didn't mention . 

Bromance: The First Writing Genre I Venture And I Write Fiction Only And Why

Thanks to Wikipedia!

What a great day of talking!

I think I'm going to talk about things now. About bromance. I never experience it. I never have any bromantic relationships, and I never know anything about it. Until I write. Until I research what genre my first book falls into. And then here it is:

Bromance: a close non-sexual relationship between two (or more) men

Wow! I mean, just wow! It's not here where I live. Close non-sexual relationship between two or more men. Or boys! Hey, I never know there's anything like that. Like brother and romance = bromance! I used to not believe about romantic friendship. And I tell myself "I'm going to write about something I don't believe to make me believe." And I did. I write my first book. And then I fall in love with my own crappy story, which still, amaze me during the editing process. 

First I don't know what to write, and where that story would be. So I create fictitious place and people. I pick Biloxi, Mississippi, at a beach territory area at Google Map, and print out the portion of the map, and circle a place with a red marker without knowing what the hell is there. Hey, I live in Malaysia, I decided that my first story is about Americans, I mean, is that wrong? So I try it out, and create about two boys. One boy just a normal boy, kind of like me, half part of me, and I named him. Chester. That name haunts me at night, thinking about his physical attributes, what special in him. I begin writing about him and talking with him (imaginary-friendly way) alone and get to know him. Boom! He's just a normal dude! But he's lonely -- he wanted a big brother. Like when he's little he wish that there's a big dude that could carry him in the back and run at the beach during twilight in front of their house. But he doesn't have one. He's born as his mother's first son, and he's a big brother.

Next guy. Carter. Whoa, this guy, I started out as a guy who will give the oh please effect to me. He makes fan girls scream like hell, so loud that you'll be deaf. Muscular, six packs, handsome, famous, beautiful . . . everything a girl (or guys) dreamed of. But I need to make a conflict. That conflict is . . . he is gay. Haha, that would be funny when I see the girls get disappointed by that. And then he loses his fame for that. So this famous NBA guy, I create him during his career breakdown. At first he seems funny, all that gay stuff got into him. But then I found it miserable. He just got a breakup with his girlfriend, and a friend of his that he love the most died. 

So, Chester's lonely, Carter's sad, why shouldn't I make them meet together? And I did! And I write about it, smiling while my fingers are rushing on my keyboards until some of the letters of it scattered off, it forms a novel. But I don't think I wanted to share this. But those 90k words would be a waste. Okay, then I decided to self-publish.

During the editing process, I research about my book genre. Yes, it's bromance. It's about two guys who loved each other so much, but they realize they don't have any sexual feelings towards each other. They just love each other, and they know it. Maybe my book is not something that you could or you can see, but that's what I want.  I want to create something that I never see with my eyes. And it worked. While writing the book, I avoid writing miserable posts about my damn high school life, avoid thinking about some damn people who turn me down, and I FORGET COMPLETELY about annoying teachers at school when I am writing this novel. So I write! And my head just keep thinking about this guys. 

CONCLUSION? 

I think it's better to write fictitious things, something you never experience, and you experience it with writing than to write a memoir about your sad life. If you write about your sad life, it would not make things better when you stuck yourself in this boring real life. Trust me, if you write fiction, your head will be clearer, and it will sooth you down. Come on, it must be working for realist! I mean, don't you tired facing the tiring real life every day, and then during writing, you got a chance to go to two paths between reality and fantasy, , after those tiring days in real life, would you still take the path 'Non-Fiction/Real-life' during writing? Come on, take a break . 

That explains why I write fiction . 

And I love Bromance :)

Writing Life

Sometimes life is hard . Especially for someone like me . Why? Because I like to create.

Create - definition; doing something that I could share with you. Anything, you name it: cooking (sharing food creations), stupid stuff, talks, craps, opinions, and . . . STORIES. Hum . . . stories, why not?

Games? The boys like to play Assassin Creed, Counter Strike, Soccer and Blahh and something boyish . Well, I am a boy yet I still love to create . Sometimes I think how can I create a game ? No, that's seem impossible for now, for me . But games? I play The Sims 3 (creating house) Rollercoaster Tycoon 3 (creating theme-parks!) Plant Tycoon (creating plants) and all about creating . I guess that becomes an issue for me until I try to write . 

Writing stories, well, sounded presumptuous as it seems . Who would want to read my story ? That's before I even start to write . Now I did , and I love what I do . 

Sometimes I'm going to write a lot , hating that story  I create, create another one . There I go , I didn't create just food , or games , in writing , I am creating a world . A world where people live in it , and one day probably people will know those people .  Like Harry Potter , whose existence came from an amazing British mother's hand ! Sound impressive, eh ? I can create a whole lot of things , worlds with story-writing . So this is what I'm choosing . I don't want anything else . I want to tell a story . I want to create worlds through words I write . And I started since I was thirteen . And I'm going to do this until I die . 

So this blog is about my writing life , and about what I do . I'm going to tell you guys possibly about everything here . And about my experience creating the worlds through words . 

XOXO
Izzat